I don't know

No, this time I réally don't know what to do. It seems this night is going to be one whole night of thinking and lying awake in my bed. Yeah, that sucks.

I thought people noticed, I thought they had the same suspicions as I had, but today I realised it wasn't that way.

So what should I do now? I'll promise myself not to cry, I'm not going to be weak. I already almost waited for half a year, before I got the second sign of it. Maybe it's just friendship? Maybe it's just a manner, maybe this isn't real.

Shall I talk with somebody?

No. I can't saddle them up with my stupid problem, especially when this is not real. I've got the pressure again, the push to do what.. I've done before. Maybe stopping it isn't the good way to help myself. Maybe I should begin again.

No. I can't do that. It wouldn't help anyway.`

Yes or no? Well, CharlesOak said Yes, so I publicate this.

Omg I'm getting so emo of this -.-' And I know I'm talking weird right now, let's just quit.

xoxo.